I had to put my dog down once, it was such a terrible experience that I swore I'd never get a dog ever again. A couple of years later my mom came home with a puppy. I was mad; I told her I didn't want anything to do with that dog and I want it out of the house. She kept it and as time went by I couldn't resist the cute little thing. I named it Chico and he is now five-and-a-half years old. The sad part is, I love Chico more than any other dog I've had in the past... He is a medium-sized dog and I know he would be lucky to live past 12 years old. I dread that day. I wish dogs lived longer than humans so we'd never have to see the end of such innocent animal. Dogs are amazing creatures and I'm truly sorry for your loss... Hope you get well soon though it takes time.